Yesterday was a bust. The book group met here, and so of course I had to have treats. The veggies and dip were okay, but then the brownie cheesecakes weren't. So here we go again. The problem is, when faced with a brownie cheesecake, I always say, "Oh who cares!" and just go ahead. And then, after I eat 4 or 5, I realize that I do care, and it's too late to take it back. so today, here's my goal. I'm allowed to have one brownie cheesecake after lunch. I can stick to that, and I can be accountable for it. Even if it's only to the internet.
Tonight we are going out to dinner. I'll be careful.
I'm doing pretty well today. I've decided to go back to Weight Watchers Points, because that has worked for me in the past. So I've had cereal and milk for breakfast, and then a great salad for lunch. I love salads with all sorts of stuff in it! Now we're heading into the afternoon, with all sorts of munchie attacks coming on. Carrots and dip anyone?
And yes, I am quite short. I'm 5'2", which makes my high of 134 bordering on "overweight" using some methods of calculation. Whatever, I'm just ready to lose the weight.
That's it! This year has been rotten! I feel like I've been starving since January, and literally, have lost zero pounds. A couple of weeks ago, I just gave up. It seems like no matter what I do, following points, or tracking calories, spending hours on the treadmill, nothing works. So I ate what I wanted, when I wanted and didn't care.
But the truth is, I care. I hate the way my body looks and feels right now. I'm miserable only wearing my fat jeans, and feeling like I need to wear spanx to hide my jiggly belly when I go out in public.
Back when I was in high school, running on the track team and weighing in at 105, I told myself I'd never get above 120. That seemed like such a huge amount, and I set that goal knowing that I'd never get there! Even if I ate cheesecake all day long! Aahh, the dreams of youth. Reality, and three babies have brought me to 134 today.
So there's the big fat truth. I need to lose 14 pounds to meet my 10 year old goal. But for this challenge, my goal will be to lose 8 pounds. That's a little over half of the total weight I need to lose, and I know I can do it.